So in honor of #TransparentTuesday let me share this story with you guys. Now ya'll remember how last week I stepped out of my comfort zone and into a romper? Well, yesterday I did something that took me completely out of my box. I served as the worship leader for the youth service at a friend's church. Now I know what you're thinking, isn't this is the same girl that loves to perform in front of people and make videos? It would seem to most people that I don't have a shy bone in my body, but to be honest with you their are a few instances where even I don't like to be center stage.
Yes, I do love Jesus, and yes I do love to perform, but the thought combining the two always made me feel a little unsure of myself. I didn't think I had what it takes to lead anything in church...like I wasn't "qualified". I consider myself to be a pretty spiritual person but compared to others I never felt like I measured up. I wasn't this powerful preacher. I haven't memorized the Bible from cover to cover and one of the things that absolutely terrified me the most was the thought of having to lead a prayer. If you have been around me long enough the you have probably heard me say that "prayer" is not my ministry lol. I'll touch and agree in the audience all day but please do not ask me to lead.
Well that all changed this past Sunday. When my friend asked me to be worship leader at her church's youth day service I agreed. I figured it couldn't be that bad. All I had to do was follow the program, right? WRONG!!! When I asked my mom aka Jesus' BFF for clarification on exactly what it is that I would be doing she made sure to add that I would need to "flow in the Spirit". WHAT?! WHAT?! WHAT?! Now the pressure was on, but I decided that I would pray about it and not stress over it. I actually became kind of excited about the day and as Sunday rolled around I got myself and the boys ready and my mom even came along for support.
So this is the part of the story where Jesus throws me a curve ball. I thought I had it all together until I got a chance to see a copy of the program and by my name was listed the word "invocation". Now I consider myself to be a pretty intelligent person but I can admit that I had no clue what that word meant. So I said to myself "Brittany you either have to suck up your pride and ask for a definition or get up there and look a fool", so I asked the woman who was helping me get ready what it meant. That's when I learned it meant that I would lead the prayer. I had to repeat it back out loud just to make sure that I had heard correctly. Realizing that I couldn't back out now because I had made a commitment (plus the boys and my mom were already in the sanctuary sitting down lol), I decided that I would have to pull out my "inner prayer warrior" and get over my fear of "public praying" (unlike public speaking, if you are afraid of public praying it is NOT recommended that you imagine everyone in the audience in their underwear). Anywho, I finished the prayer and if that wasn't enough when it came time for offering I was told that I would do that prayer as well. Now not only was I being trusted to pray over their souls but now I was being asked to pray over their money! I managed to get through that prayer as well and breathed a silent sight of relief that I had made it through what I considered the hard parts.
The service was wonderful and I am grateful for the opportunity to get out of my comfort zone yet again. This time, it was my "spiritual" comfort zone. Sometimes we have to be stretched to learn what we are really made. So now I am officially a "prayer warrior in training". I'm not rushing to the front of the congregation just yet to lead the saints in a word of prayer but I know that one day I'll get there.
Is there something that you have been afraid to do, but for one reason or another had to do it anyway? If so leave me a comment, I would love to hear about it!!!